When's the last time you did something for the first time?

While you're doing things to pass time until it's tomorrow, I'm here typing away like a mad girl. While tomorrow is today for you, I'm writing this today which is yesterday for you. I mean I could just say today's thursday, but I'm a writer, us writers love to confuse sh!t to make you think sh!t. Anyways it's the weekend, which means it's actually THE WEEKND. So, I got you. I'm here to relinquish your troubles you've had, and those to come. In this blog post we're shooting past the moon. I need to get away, and something tells me you want the same. Truth be told, I've been on these streets for too long. I've been watching. I've been waiting for something. I've been waiting for anything or everything. I don't know maybe it's a certain sign I'm seeking to know that it's time. THE WEEKND allows me to separate the truth from the lies, so I can see the in between. because somehow the "In between

It's another PINK THURSDAY. It's another day to be crazy and see the world in PINK. Remember it's the "crazy", people that change/make history. You have to ask yourself, how can I be a better version of myself? One could easily say to show up more often, and yeah there's rewards when you take the intiative to be brave. But I can also say you'll never become who you're truly meant to be if you're always putting yourself last. You shouldn't help others if there are risks. THe major risk being you stopping your own growth to help others who quite frankily don't need your help. It was me last year helping everyone, but myself. I was working a Monday through Friday job, and the weekends I barely slept because I was always helping others. This didn't help me one bit, especially knowing the fact that the people that "so called", needed my help didn't care that they were running me into the ground. People aren'

We're living in the fast lane, when it comes to moving away from people who serve no purpose in our lives. Choosing to still keep people around who serve no purpose in your life is like having the potential, but letting those around you stop you before you get started. Go crazy when it comes to rearranging your life. It takes the guts and the heart to become the ultimate creator. You were given the hands to create what you choose to see. Be the first to do it in your family. Be the first to create in your community. Be the first of the first in all aspects of your life. Do what others deem to be impossible. Make people believe that IMPOSSILBE actually means I'M POSSIBLE. When your words no longer sound like your native language that's your sign you're doing right. When your actions have those around you phoning insane asylums, know that you're moving right. The things about you becoming backwards to others, is your sign to continue to do what se

As you're walking through the castle's cold and quiet halls, congratulate yourself. You made it. You made your way into the castle. Are you having second thoughts? Are you are afraid, because you don't know if you're making the right mistake? Or worst... you're nervous because you can't predict how this is going to turn out? Are you afraid that your friends may not make it out of this, even though you promised them that you'd make sure they'd walk out of this alive? I know how you're feeling. It's probably went from cool to hot. Your heart is skipping multiple beats. You might even cry. Do you think your inside men, will get caught. I mean you never wanted to drag anyone else into this, but how would you have pulled off this entire operation alone? We all need someone. Even though you've made it this far, you just have to make it past the ballroom, because one wrong move and you're all dead. We're all dead. The thing ab

This word has become far to common nowadays. But this topic needs to be discussed, because there's a shift happening, and alot of people are starting to realize they weren't crazy. Times like today is forcing people to finally wake up and smell the Bullsh*t. It's very possible to have discovered later in life that you're not "weird", it's just that you're the black sheep of this twisted society. And let me tell you Black sheeps aren't made to fit in. You'll never fit in into society because society has a way of molding people to their own liking. You'll also never fit in within your family, because the view points will always be different. Honestly relatively speaking I believe we're put into families such as the ones we were forced to deal with, not for our harm, but solely to prepare us for the real world. But I will say some of your biggest haters will always be your own family... that's where soul family/ soul tr

Hey Hey Hey.... I hope you took my advice last Sunday. But hopefullly you didn't expect it to solve all your problems overnight. I've never known someone to solve a "Lifetime's worth of problems"overnight. I don't think that's all that possible, because there's levels to healing. And with more levels there are more devils. See the thing is, people will never quite understand how you're able to attack your oppostions head on. When you finally wake up, you'll realize a lot of people are fearful. They're fearful of what they might become if they do decide to do what most wouldn't do. While I bring out your food, you might want to sit on what I just said for a minute. Okay here you are... but watch yourself that plate's hot. But anyways what you want someone else wants. Only time will tell who'll get what they rightfully deserve. If you don't think you deserve it, then you can't get mad if you miss your opport

This may be a new segment... I don't know. Let's see how deep and dark I can spin this. Sometimes I can see myself telling you ,how you'll become anew when you realize you hold a more ancient posture. Other times I feel like a maniac. When nights roll around, it's me locking myself within my room to feel shut in. It's me wanting to feel trapped, so I have no excuses not to write like a mad person. Word of advice sometimes you have to fake scenarios that's best compared to your old scenarios, to dig up emotions you swore you'd never bring back to life. But honestly your traumas are like an EVANESCENCE music video. It's spooky but righteous. Anyways I'm free balling it. There's times I make notes of what I'm going to write about, and then there are nights like this one, where I can't takes notes. My thoughts are pouring out to fast, and if you don't have a place to trap them into, they'll seep off elsewhere. I'm a f

You better not be complaining about there being another "THE WEEKND" blog post. You better get one thing very clear, as long as THE WEEKND produces music, the longer I'm going to pump out content. Don't hate the player hate the game, or is it don't hate the game hate the player? But honestly why are you hating anyone for any matter... it's been proven time and time again, that that type of energy is pointless. So I'm not going to stop, I've come too far to turn back around. I'm in too deep, and yeah I may be over my head, but I'd rather be that then "centered", or "Level head". But honestly why would you want to think straight? When you're only able to think straight, you will be an easy target to all the lies being told. But if you're too far gone, then you're accesible to believe what others wouldn't think could be possible. Maybe this situation has become sticky, but who said sticky was a b

What If I told you, you had a week left to live? Would you be fulfilled with where you're at? Would you hate yourself, because you didn't get what you wanted out of life? These are important questions, because I feel like I could give you, and myself a few words of wisdom. I want to be happy with what I've done, that's why I'm doing more... but to be honest I could be doing WAYYY more. We all could be doing more. But if I were to flip the coin, I would also say that the universe is on your side. You can have whatever you want, but you have to be willing to go for it. Shoot pass the stars if you must, but never stay where you are. You're given signs all day everyday to change your life. I'm pretty sure once you die you'll regret not going for it. Who wouldn't! Especially if they were given a preview on how their life would've turned out, if they would've just stayed the course. The world becomes beautiful once you claim it to be

It's wednesday, and here I am piecing this together the day of. But I swear I'm going to makes this short but cute. I'm curious as to why do we all think that we never have what we need? Why do we go to others for the answers? Why can't we ever believe that we can do it? These are questions that sometimes run through my mind when I start doubting myself, and I know I'm not alone. So that's why I thought it was only fitting to dig this problem up, to finally bury it twelve feet under instead of six. The thing is, it's hard to believe that we can have everything that we want. It's also hard to consider that maybe, the things that we're looking for is already inside of us. Sometimes it's easier to question our abilites, instead of facing them head on. But the thing is... it's true. We do have everything at the tip of our fingers. We have the ability to turn ordinary things into extraordinary things. We have the power to make use of

You're here great...we can't talk too long, because we have to hear when it's a go. I have a feeling everything is going to go as planned. I feel like you'll get what you want. Remember the end goal is to destroy what hurt us, because you can't have the castle if it's preoccupied with oppostions. The number one rule to know is to never eat with snakes, because they have a tendacy to turn on you when you least expect it. This is the fourth part, and you'll be glad to know we're almost there. You're almost there. Reading the title you're probably confused. You're probably looking for your walkie talkie to call of the whole operation, but the thing is when you have a good plan in motion it's best to leave it. It's best to let it play out, especially if the inside men are on board. Looking from the outside in, you might think it's easy to get within the castle, but I'm pretty sure it wasn't easy on their part .Now is

How do you expect to win with a Narcisst? How do you think this will pan out if you're an empath, and they lack empathy for others? It's quite sad that Narcissism is considered a disorder. These people are the worst of the worst. When I look into your eyes, while knowing what type of person you are, and see that you obviously don't care... why would I consider how you feel? They're like dead batteries. These people lack validation in one way or another. Maybe they had a bad childhood, or maybe they had a bad breakup of some sort. Sometimes its just them growing up with no friends, while them promising themselves that things will be different when they grow up. Honestly there are a number of reasons as to why they'd choose to be a pain in someone's A**, but I don't have time to list a whole novel. I don't like staying on this topic for too long, because it's annoying to think about. For some reason these type of people love to forgive the

Are you okay you seem grumpy. Are you sure, because when I see someone down I always feel the need to be of help. Especially if you walk into my diner, I want to make sure you're taken care of. Okay since you said you're fine ,I'll just take your drink order... if thats okay. But honestly if you're looking for words of wisdom I'd just tell you to drop what holds you down. I'd also say to do more of what makes you flourish. So,are you ready to order? Okay perfect! You'll have fries, a burger, with a vanilla milkshake. I love your choice. But while we wait for our amazing cook to whip up your meal let's talk if thats ok? Judging by your meal you're in a serious mood,but a small part of you is still young and curious. Did you know ,you can tell alot about a person, based off their food choices. I mean every food choice on this menu is amazing... but who do you think made this menu? Wait did you really think that I only signed my name on t

Happy Saturday or whatever!!! This blog is advice to everyone. It's of use, and hopefully you consider what I have to say. Sometimes Its hard seeing someone you know and or care about go down the wrong path. It sucks when others don't see what you see. But to be clear in this situation you have to let them think that they've won, because there's no sense in trying to explain your reasonings, as to way they should pull themselves back together. You already know they're not going to take your advice. There's no use in wasting your time. Going back and forth shouldn't be part of your daily agenda. People that love to argue, already know the concept of energy consumption. These people know the meaning of going back and forth. They know that its your energy that they'll get. These people are like dead batteries. Why would you want to be an outlet for their wicked ideas? Stay away from energy vampires, when its your blood that they want.

I'm back!!! What did you not believe the circus would come back to your hometown? Well I'm sad, because you should've believed me. You should have had faith. Why didn't you take my word? I mean I wouldn't lie to you. I would never deceive you... Just a little warning when you step inside my HOUSE OF HORROS ... I mean my "CIRCUS", It's going to get hot. It's going to get really hot!! OH MY GOSH, no I'm not taking you hell. I mean I could, if that's what you're wanting. You can have whatever you want if you have the courage to step inside. You can literally even call this circus "THE PROMISE LAND", if that'll make you feel safe. Tell me you're enjoying the girls. Tell me you're getting a bang for your buck. I mean why wouldn't you like the girls? How could you not like girls when they're on fire? Why wouldn't you want to see the beginning and the ending? Are you having a good time, or do you

I used to side eye people who were petty... but don't get me wrong, its those people who live 24/7 to be petty(those are the ones who leave a bad taste in my mouth). Now people like that get on my last nerve. People like that need help, because life is wayyy to beautiful to constantly be petty. Go outside and touch some grass. But anyways it's past MIDNIGHT so no MIDNIGHT SEDUCTION... COME BACK LATER THIS WEEK TO EXPLORE YOUR LADY PSYCHE!!!! So since it's after hours let's go to the back and talk. But wait hold on let me make sure the "WE'RE CLOSED FOR BUSINESS" sign is visible, because there's always a s!ck FUCK, who seems to pull on the handle looking for a way in. Ladies it's okay to turn everyone against him. Make it so ,that the only one he can crawl back to is... you. If he did you dirty why should you be the Lady of his dreams"? I need to know which son of a B!tch told you that? Why should he taste the rainbow... when it

Can't you feel something is different? I can feel something is off. I usually get this feeling when something awful is about to happen. I think what we're about to do, just got a disapproving nod by your god. Ladies its midnight, so you know what that means. We're taking things slow even when we get on top to take his soul. Get into the habit of savouring your victims. I mean your man.... And if he's a one nighter that's ok... us ladies over here, we don't judge. Ladies the mission is to make him tense up. The only thing that should be racing through his brain is... you. When he's attending that "special" meeting make sure you leave a certain message/photo in his mist before, to give him something to think about. But remember ladies, guys aren't entirely stupid. When they want to be a "genius", it just happens. Just make sure he doesn't sense our "Blair Witch Project". OH LORD I THINK SOMETHING

The title is controversial... I know. But it's also true... I said what I said. But before I go on a PINKALICIOUS rant... lets back it up. These Wednesday and Thursday blogs are cute. I love to call you in, but I also love to get the message across real quick. I like to take you to the climax, before dropping you off elsewhere. Come in but you'll always leave with something to think about. So where were we? Ohhh yeah... wanting people to like you is very tedious. Its time consuming, especially when people know those are your goals. people are twisted. Lets face it, what you don't say they'll never know. The only time you should allow someone to play in your face, is when you come to my circus. It's tomorrow by the way. Mark your calendars, because you've signed a soul contract... which means you have to stop by. When you choose to be yourself, you'll always be true to you. Theres no one like you, which gives you the advantage to bring something d

Is it weird that I still haven't seen the last episode of 'Euphoria"? I don't know. I don't sit around watching T.V. all day long. That could never be me. I think I'd upchuck on a wood chuck if I did. There's more to life than that. But we're not here for the pep talk. I'm here to help you once more. I've actually been summoned from hell once more, by no other than you. You're worried that you're not doing IT for him anymore? Or you're just all in your head. I thought you knew by now to not listen to your thoughts, because "your thoughts" , aren't really your thoughts( I know...mind blown.) But anyways I'll stick around. Why might you ask... because I just so happen to adore my "MIDNIGHT SEDUCTION" segments. They're hypnotizing. If you'd actually listen to my spells, he too would be hypnotized. If you want him drooling over you, then you're going to have to be dangerous. The more

Awww you're back... how cute! So, be honest with yourself you miss when this was only a girl's platform... I promise it still is, but also you have to learn that when you're good at something eventually the guys will come along. Which is totally fine... because they could learn a thing or two when coming to a girl's platfrom, especially my platform. You already know the rules when you tune into this platform. When you come into my "FUNHOUSE", you have to first sage yourself, wait... I almost forgot you can't even step in if you're outfit isn't to die for. I'll be sure to throughly go over the rules in another post, but as of right now I don't have much time. Today I woke up with an insane amount of energy. It's not just any energy it's the type of energy where I'm already working on things to dish out for this Saturday. Wasted energy is so uncool. Bragging about wasting your time is lame... and you know it. It'

Okay here we are again wanting to know more before we storm the castle. You've already learned to heal your inner child, plus you've learned to know yourself. These were the first two steps, because without these two ,I'm pretty sure you'd get caught. And I don't know about you, but the Medieval Era was not the era to mess around in. Brutal attacks were their specialities. This third step is highly important. This step will either get you in the castle, or get you killed before you even get started. When I told you to practice, well I hope you listened to my advice. I wanted you to practice any and everything that came to mind. One of the most important practices you needed to brush up on was "trust". Without trust, how can certain plans move forward? False trust can lead you straight to your grave. Real Talk! Between me and you, can you really trust your friends? I'm not going to ask ,how long have you guys known each other, because time doe

You're up!!! Good. So now here's the message for today. Wait...for starters its (4:44) so if you're dealing with leaving something behind, just know it was supposed to happen, because you're entering a new cycle and who you needed to leave behind wasn't capable of coming with you. So where were we... oh yeah I was telling you to get up. Just because its Monday doesn't give you the green light to sink further into your sheets. The fasest way to get pass Monday is to just get up... right? But while you get up just know, you don't have to be medicore. Just because its Monday doesn't mean you have to wear that hideous outfit. You don't have to skip your self care routine. You definitely don't have to walk a little faster so you can get back home. When you want to turn a "bad" day into a good day, the best advice I can give you is to just live in the moment. Thinking about the end of the day ,could have you missing the opportuni

Hi... thanks for coming back. Honestly how are you standing on your own two feet after your outing at the circus? Did you see everything that there was to see? If not I heard that they're coming back this Friday. So... lets skip the part where I explain to you about why we weren't open last Sunday. So, what can I start you off with? You're going to have to speak up a tad bit I unfortunately listen to my music really loudly so most times everything sounds like a blur. But anyways I'll be out in a second to bring you your drinks. So while you wait for your food lets talk, because I can tell you how your life is going to go, if you keep staying out everyday and or every weekend. If you don't know how to say "NO", then you're going to have to learn to say it before you leave this diner. I want you to be firm before you walk back into that world with a lot of meaningless people sucking you dry. And I have time, so if that means us calling som

WOOOOOWWWW..... who knew I'd sell out my second batch of tickets. Last time we were here, I was selling tickets to the opening act. If you seemed to have downed your liquor and forgot that the opening act was no other than MELANIE MARTINEZ. She set the tone for the rest of this psychotic circus. Do grab your seats before its too late, the curtains are about to open. It's going to be a night to remember. Have you ever been a witness to AERIAL DANCERS? These girls are known to be mesmerizing. They're known to take you from this world and deliever you to another one. And who knows who you'll be offered to. I can't believe I got so busy with everyday and all of its troubles to forget I had a circus to run. I needed to disappear, I slept on the idea for many nights until there was only one place I knew for a fact would deliever me on a sliver platter. I have a question for you, why are you a prisoner to lose ends. Why do you stick around without a cure to

Omg I remember it was Freshmen year. or was it Sophmore Year? Anyways I was texting both my Stepdad and my Bestfriend (at the time)... separately of course. So my friend and I were talking about a boy, and in the mist my Stepdad texted me "what do you need?" And somehow I thought my friend texted me that, so I replied back with "confidence". Tell me why my Stepdad went on an entire rant, about how I'll be okay... and some other stuff stepdad's usually say. That was soooo embarrassing, because all I needed from him was a ride. I thought I'd start this blog off with a little funny story before we get down and dirty. Its the Weekend, which means Its THE WEEKND. I opened myself to THE WEEKND, BECAUSE HE DEMANDED HE NEEDED ALL OF IT. Even he knows that we don't have to love a certain person, for them to crave us badder than bad. This cruel game you're going to pull is wicked. This games will require you to be devious. You have to for

Why do you spend less and less time looking at yourself? Why doesn't your room have a body size mirror? Do you think people, who have multiple mirrors are shallow? Is being shallow a bad thing? If so ,who told you that? There must've been someone who planted a seed, or multiple seeds in your head? I don't know about you, but I listen to PARIS HILTON, she's one of the reasons why I do what I do. Don't you 'HILTON' stans worry, she'll be introduced to my ItGirl OverLoad platform REAL SOON. Unlike you I keep my promises. You promised yourself you'd give more time to yourself, but yet here you are still rushing out of the house, before staring at yourself. Wasn't it PARIS HILTON who said, "Never pass a mirror without looking in it?" To be honest I don't know why I put a question mark after that, because IT WAS HER WHO SAID THAT QUOTE. Facts are facts. Maybe it's time to slow your "role",or is it "road&qu

It's another "MIDNIGHT SEDUCTION". One of these days you'll thank me for, or you'll hate me because(The guy that you're dealing with, has gone all "Bat Shit"crazy, by my teachings...), won't leave you alone. But you can't blame me, because when you come through, I always make it known that my Midnight Seduction reads, will take you straight to hell. So if you're overly religious why would you even be interested in Hell anyways? But since you're here there's no use in escaping. I've ordered the gates be on lock down, until you've finished reading this juicy... or shall I say tasteless, because the test dummy we have coming to the center stage is a COLD one. So with all due respect, get comfortable. Ladies and gents(because there's no use in going incognito), may I present to you, Nate Jacobs. He starred in the hit T.V. show "Euphoria". But we don't have time when it comes to me breaking down h

All hail PINK . Most importantly how good does PINK look while in the same sentence as Wednesday? Because a girl needs to know... oh wait its because of REGUINA GEORGE. If you were present for last week's PINK blog post, you would've known what that topic was about. If not I highly suggest you go back to read that post. Today's blog post is about being highkey, but also lowkey at the same time. We live in a time now where everyone is showing everything all at once. I'm definitely not talking about us girls being us. We should continue to be us, in every thing that we do, and if people don't like it they can gladly kick rocks. But they won't... why though? I can say that maybe its because people are nosy, or their life is boring so its your life that sparks their interest, or its because you're always around. Its you, that's always within reach. How can you be missed, if you're always on display? Maybe think about that simple yet important q

It's nice to have you back. As you know, I love blogging... because I'm able to talk freely. If you're still thinking about becoming a blogger...do it. It's really fun. For the rest of the year we're only doing things that are fun. So anyways I summoned everyone around the fire, because if you read the first step in taking the castle, then you're ready for part two. I gave you a week to heal your inner child, but obviously it takes more than one week. But within that week, if you made a plan of any sorts,that would be benefical for your healing then that's great. you're more likely to succeed in anything if you're willing to first make a plan. And keep in mind you're wanting to storm an entire castle. That takes a whole lot of self awareness. What castle did you intend on storming, if you don't know who you are. Do you even know the potential you carry? Your mantra should be "To know thyself." Remember you beco

This is my second Miraculous Monday blog post. I can COLDHEARTEDLY say that I'm extremely confident that this segment will take off!!! I can truly say that these Monday Posts can help you, if you're willingly to hold what I say closely to heart. We all need motivation for each week, because how can we predict what's to happen? How can you possibly know how to prepare yourself if you aren't given any clues? So get comfortable while I light the way for you... I promise I won't keep you long! If you're looking for a sign, well this is it. I need you to get crystal clear with your goals. You need to know exactly what you want, because if a shark swims backwards it dies. Repeatedly making the same mistakes isn't a fogged mind . it's more like a decision. Not wanting to stop before you start will have you hating not only Monday's but also the days that follow closely behind. And who wants to do that? Just know that if/when you're ready to

Its true when they say "Home is where the heart is", but most people fail to realize that home is anywhere. Most times its not even your "Birth Home",that's your actual home. Why should your zen be your birth home? If no heart exists in that vile place, why do you consider that to be "home".Often times people settle for less. They make a habit of staying in places where it seems to be taking a toll on their happiness. Your home shouldn't breed monsters. Your home is one of the few places where you can wind down and be you. You can love what you do in peace. Home is where the cookies are. Your safe haven could very well be many places all over. You don't have to plant your feet into just one place. If you're a wonderer like myself then you know that your heart pulls for many places. Let this be your sign to find your home... wherever that may be. Pack it up if you must, but promise yourself that when you do find your ultimate hap

What do you do when you've met your match? When he's everything you want in a guy... do you let him slip through your fingers? Okay that was a dumb question ... but to be honest a few girls out of the bunch actually met their "Mister Right", but they fumbled the bag. You met him and you questioned yourself... why? Why were you so scared to be the real you... or to become the real you. Here's the thing no one likes to be alone, unless you're me. Like I always say real men love to suffer. So since its midnight let's dive deep but quick ...into the pits of HELL. trust me when I say that those dark fantasies that you keep bottled up, need to be released. When you lay it on him once, he'll want more. He might even say "give it to me, and nobody else babygirl!!!" Guys love to be tortured, and whats more sexier than them getting tortured by you. Why should you be "heaven sent", when all you know is being Hell bound? Re

***Slight moan***... It's the weekend, so you already know what that means. If you're new here, the weekends are solemnly for us... (especially for me),to channel our inner "WEEKND". Like I mentioned before "THE WEEKND", takes me somewhere no other man has been able/capable of taking me. I like today/ this weekend, because I'm letting him take me past the cosmos. Ladies feel free to ask for a rocketship, and if he can't make that happen, then its time to pack it up and SALE... I mean SAIL you soul elsewhere! But ladies... if you're like me you'll "SACRIFICE", HIM BEFORE YOU FINALLY PART WAYS. You're not a doctor(or maybe you are) so stop trying to fix him. Accept that he's not the one. Accept the fact that he's not the perfect fit. He's not the perfect DUMMY... I meant to say "SUBJECT"... the perfect subject. Don't sacrifice your time on a broke one. You're meant to be drenched in

One more day and its Friday... I think its me trying to relate, because I spend most days inside to be honest. But if you're a working girlie(and or guy cause I know y'all read about me too) make sure you make this weekend your b!tch. Because you can't complain about where you're at,if all you do is sleep on the weekends!! Anyways I should listen to my spirital advisor more, she told me to not stress myself out when people don't want your help... even if where they're headed is HELL. If thats where you going be sure to take pictures. Anyways Thursdays are cute. I like how Wednesday's bleed onto Thursdays so just like yesterday, all I can see today is PINK. But quick... gather around I want to fill you in on a little "something something". Hot girls read. Not me looking at my vision board. I literally have a picture of Blair Waldorf reading. Hot girls don't chase boys, they only chase certain books that just so happen to hav