When's the last time you did something for the first time?

Imagine how missed you would be if you gave up on yourself; imagine how many people would miss your star quality -if you gave up on yourself. Just accept that you're on your way to greatness, even if most days it doesn't feel like it. Silence is good; silence is great -it's what most people wish they could have, even though they never allow themselves much freedom to do so. I don't enjoy chaos, and I don't know how most people thrive in the center of it. How do you like your days, do you like them nice or chaotic? Without you who would witness a king... who would witness a queen. But if we're talking about kings and queens, I'll play the queen if it means overthrowing the king -because what's the most useless piece on the board, and don't you dare say the pawn. Change the things that don't allow you to breathe fire. You're a dragon, but you've been allowing spawns tell you that you're a pony. Why? You can never spit fire if

Being a good person turned me into a joker. I became the clown in a matter of two nights. I went back to my old ways, the exaggerated parts of myself. The unwise version of myself, and why did I do it ? Maybe, I wanted to feel a feeling, I know I can't quite feel anymore. I wanted to feel high but not that high. I was longing for a fun time, but does that make me selfish? Did it expose the monster I can be when I'm ecstatic? Did I really just side with a predator leaving the odd man out to be the lonesome prey, like I've never experienced that lonesome feeling before. I wasn't even provoked but in a sense I allowed the prey to get provoked -knowing that the prey was somewhat the predator that it was before. So was I inevitably bad or just morally wrong? Either way no more high tides for me. I'm putting my surf board away. I can't keep overthinking when I could've just removed myself from the other person's story. You know it sucks, because th

I've been up all night trying to find value in my own mind, or am I trying to devalue it? I've been overdosing to stay still... mentality or it is to stay physically still? I wonder who can see my silhouette when I'm pacing back and forth. Do I seem crazy to them, or can they relate to my madness? My antics aren't my own,but I carry them as such. Why? I try to destroy myself, but I can't quite do it right. I wanted to stop the pain, but all I did was delay a natural process -that my body's supposed to go through . I didn't mean to do it I swear, I just wasn't up to feel the pain my body is so used to feeling. I didn't know I would still suffer if not more. My message to you is to go and even grow through the pain. I tried to stop my natural body flow, and now I'm up way past nine -trying to find some sort of conclusion to all of my fears. Something inside of me wants more, a difference I can't quite explain, but I know that I

While the world's trying to stay the same, dare to be different. I've found myself in the same place that I was in several other times -before. I''m always being told to not stand out, to stand down as well as sit down... but why is this so? Are we trying to keep the peace by making others stay okay with their mediocrity, or are we playing to win our own game. I always say the game that's being played should be designed by you, never get yourself stuck in someone else's game unless you have plans to lose yourself. I mean why is it such a crime to want to be different, because truly and honestly none of us came into this world together(I mean unless you have a twin in you), but yeah you came as one -meaning you should do as you please. Worry not about the faces that turn sour when they see the real you shining through. Don't stay where you're not welcomed. Hell, if you're tired of standing down, build your own damn table -and invite no one.

Hi there. I'm glad that you decided to tune in today. I appriecate how far you've allowed me to explore myself, and for that I seriously thank you. It's another day, which means another blog. I love what I do, and I know... I know, one day I'll have to upgrade my ITGIRL PLATFORM, but for now IT'S JUST US -in this world. Even though it's Tuesday let's cheers to that. Hey. Do me a favor when you're done reading this blog, drop a drink emoji on my twiiter blog post(it can be any emoji). I want to know who's tuning in. What can I say, I'm a curious blogger who wants to know the people who consistently finds themself drinking my words -with no shame of course. I'm pretty sure you're thinking about the days when life was good. When life was easy who were you? How did you express yourself? What devoured your energy? Times are changing and if anything time has been warped. It's faster, and with fast time comes distorted minds. It&

Sunday's are spiritual for a reason, and in some instances this day looks different for all of us. Today may be a well deserved retreat, and for other's this may be the day to get your head out the gutter -with the realization that your life hasn't started, because you're not allowing it to do so. There are many lessons to be learned, and some lessons are fun... but then there are messages that take us to hell. I've licked hell on several occasions, so I fear not the flames but some reason you've been trained to fear what's inevitable. You must know that in order to live uncomfortably free you must find pleasure in hell, because for the most part -it'll become a reoccuring theme for you. I wanted to be Spiritual on not just my behave, but on yours. Today needs to be your last goodbye to meaningless music. I know. I know. We're not perfect but reducing what has no meaning can do wonders. Trust me. Some music is dark, twisted, and worst

Hi, my fellow friend. Let's do something spontaneous. Let's get dressed and go to this digital ice cream parlor. It's more of a pop up than an actual place. I heard it doesn't happen often, so shouldn't that be enough information to get up and go? I don't know about you but it's been overtly hot. My mornings are particularly unreasonable, my days are scorching, and my nights are just hot. Ice cream is what I need. I need to be reminded why summers can be enjoyed even in the flares of it all. So, are you in or are you out? I want to go, and I would love your company, but I've also been accepting that there will be times when I'm going to have to go at it alone. Not everyone's company is what we should be keeping. Sometimes since they've experienced your light they will find ways to take it. Why are your days always seemingly ruined when around certain people? Why does a simple day with simple plans become quickly compromise

Ughhhh if I could redo yesterday I would. If I could explain to you why I've been gone for so long, I would but then we would be sitting ducks -wasting time. I could offer up my time to get you to see that most times life throws curveballs at me -in the heat of the day, but then I would be talking nonsense. I can't talk nonsense, but I can say the real reason I want to redo yesterday, is because of the Olsen twins. It was their birthday yesterday, and I didn't feel up to par to blog away why I love Mary-kay and Ashley, and also inform you on a few things we could all take from them. But hey I'm here today aren't I? I know. I know I blogged about the OLSEN TWINS last year, but who cares right? Icons only become "washed up", when you bring them to shore, and I have no intentions on doing that, because I'm what they would consider The Olsen twins -biggest fan. If you haven't indulged in last year's blog you should definitely do so,

I'm always fearing that one question, because I'm afraid it'll lead to a million other questions -and with a million questions comes with not enough answers. Unfortunately I can never truly live in the moment without knowing at least most of how my day will pan out. I know. I know, I'm a looney bin, but trust me I don't need anyone to tell me that. Oh, how you would love to sit me down and strip me of who I am, and someday I might listen, but that day is nowhere in my current timeline. I truly can't take advice from someone who can't seem to stay away from their own vices. Why would I uplift your demons if I too would be suffering. I know where I'm going, but let's not act like you could ever hold the right cards to reverse what's been bestowed upon me. I've lived a little, well I mean I've died a lot so trust me when I say only you -can be your own worst enemy. Only you can stay here. Only you can suffer, but you can also be the very