When's the last time you did something for the first time?

It's Friday, and your hurt may hurt. You're not alone, just like you I also know hell has no fury when it's other people depriving you from the best corners of your mind. I miss this. I miss speaking truth with a dash of poetry. I miss hearing my keyboard crunch, while my fingers soar like a madman with little to no time. Time is crazy, but it's been crazier for me. I've been exhausted, but I've also been missing what I love to do. I've learned that no matter how long I stay away, I can never truly deny what's meant for me. Writing has always been in my blood, and the only way I could ever release myself from it, is to cut myself open, and watch while I bleed out. But anyways let's get back to where I was going. Absolution, is what everyone wants... even if they try to cowardly deny it. We all want a life sentence to change, but what if our fingertips aren't capable of lifting such capacities. Just like you I crave change, but w

Heyy I just missed my first day of school, because I just allowed my job to stress me out so much, I almost went over the edge... and I kinda wished that over the egde would've brought me the needed peace -I can't seem to find. Hi. It's the ItGirl platform, and I've pretty much been overdosing on BS my whole life, and yet here I am doing it to myself. I mean when I was younger, I didn't really have the needed claws to tear into those who loved tearing into me, but here I am as of today still getting cuts and unnecessary wounds. It's like I haven't learned, but am I really different from you? Is there something you too have yet to learn? Is there a part of you that resonates with the clumsy parts within me? I'm always compromised because I'm always allowing monsters to easily take the human parts of me. I don't want to be the wrong kind of monster. If I'm to ever be labeled a monster, it'll for sure be a monster of leisure

There are many places to be, but where I've found the most peace is within. There's so much to do, yet so little time to get things done. I feel like there are so many distractions but it's never the right distractions. No one knows you like you know you. There's never a better solitude than the one inside of you. There's never the "right time' to go within and find the real you. You have to want to know the you before the current you took over. You have to seek difference while placing your fingers on indifference. While you're allowing the world to keep you from yourself, there are people finding themselves. There's a story in us all, that makes us all important, but too many of us have yet to find it. Your story is priceless, but why does it seem pricey around basic people? Why are you dialing down who you could be to make others comfortable? I never found comfort in medicore people, because I've always found myself doubtin

I think people would care more if their own life was worth caring about. I also think people would feel more alive if they did more things to feel alive. I personally feel like people wouldn't die if their spirit had the strength to live on. I honestly think way too much for someone who says so little. I mean I speak but it's always digitally or privately. Too many mediocre people care not to hear the truth when their whole life has been a lie. How can I lie to you any more then you're already willing to lie to yourself? It's crazy how crazy people are able to spin the wheel -and make it seem like I'm the lunatic. But it's okay, because if me wanting to adsorb the negativity in your world, in hopes that it'll allow you to see the postivity one could potentially have... makes me the bad guy, then the bad guy is who I'll be. I'll be whatever if that means I'm able to be everywhere but nowhere. I can relate to sunrises as well as sunse

Today's the third day or even the fourth day(depending on when you're seeing this ), of daylight savings, and I don't know about you -but I've been seeing the benefits. Where I was tired and late on creativity before, I'm full of creativity now. I'm no longer easily tired like I was before, which means the more awake I am the more spontaneous I can be. I always try my best to use nature and it's many gifts as an outlet to embark on my many gifts as well. Having a way with words truly means looking out my window most times to push my spirit back into time, or before my time. I need radiance like a healer needs herbs. I'm fully aware of how my soul gets when the world seems brighter. I crave long brights and never miss short ones. How more creative can you allow yourself to get? Can you wake up earlier to begin much faster, or do you need just about the same amount of sleep as before? Do you speak more or less around this time? Take advantag

When's the last time we met here, or better yet when's the last time we opened the diner? I know. I know things have been empty, and worst of all unfulfilling(because how fulfilled are you really without my brunch and meaninful chats), without an acceptable explanation. Things got to me. Life made me forget things, and so things left me, but here I am... making amends -with my digital audience, and most of all my hungry audience. Of course with every reopening comes better and more food options. I come bearing Lavender and lemon muffines(plant based of course) with a sweet potato breakfast hash... there's so much more -but first tell me everything. What's happened and what haven't happened yet. Can I help, or can I just be a listening ear. Do I speak or do you speak? If you're giving me the floor, I'll say that anything is able to become yours. You can have more than you currently have because all is well -in fact everything in another demensio

If we're improving like we say we are, than that would mean dialing down the stress. Knowing that you're so much more capable than you think you are, will always prompt you to take even more matters into your hands. Stressing less truly means silencing your world -if not the whole wide world. Stress kills. Stress turns us into either monsters or soulless bottomless pits. It's when your empty, does "used to be" uninvited entites come to destroy, kill, and cause mayhem. Remove what's causing you so much destress, and begin to tune into more outlets, that allows you to be you -without being whatever... that's dragging you down. I'm going to be me, I don't know about you. But just like you I also need to start practicting what I preach. I preach common sense, but here I am allowing evil people to warp my creative thinking. I give them many chances to hurt me as well as derail me... but why? Maybe I allow the wrong people in, because things

Yeah, the title may be confusing because today's supposed to be a relaxing day, but there's always a needed message behind every post that I post. Things happen but can you ever pinpoint the why; can you realize the pain others try so hard to put into your magnetic field? Do you notice how their actions removes your will to ever be happy around them. There are always reasons as to why they act the way that they do, maybe it's because they see the greatness in you. Maybe they seem to always want to attack you, because they sense that you're about to leave them. I'm here to tell you that it takes a second to redirect your footsteps. Yeah just like healing, knowledge also isn't linear. Sometimes it's easy to forget what we're wanting to do, but it's never okay to allow sadistic people to steal your joy. It's your joy that allows you to keep on creating, because when you're constantly creating, you're also allowing your mind to th

Heyy, I don't know what you're doing but I only need a second of your time. I know it's Friday, and I know you've got plans already lined up -but I'm only here to do you a solid with the hopes that you'll take what I'm digitally giving you. We all want cake but does cake actually taste as sweet when we're untolerant to sugar? Are we causing more harm than supressing a meek craving? Understanding that it's your insides that becomes your external -saves you diffcult explanations to meaningless people. I've been eating clean and mildy dirty, and of course the chips have been amazing, but does my body also think this? I know it's easy to lose yourself when stress overcomes us all, but how we tackle these moments and or trying times, keeps the enemy out of our aura. Learn to swap this for that. Make the food game fun, or make it a full on war... but don't look for other crappy eaters to save you. How can unsavable people sa

I was doing fine, until I wasn't. I don't know where my head is going, but I can't particularly stop what I'm unaware of. I can't tell in which direction my mental is going to go, so for now I'm just stuck waiting for that awful feeling that's about to wash over me. Who else feels the exact same way? The feeling is best compared to the end of the world, and you don't know if you should feel ashamed or empty. It's like a cloud that unexpectedly clouds your most inner thoughts. What am I even thinking when i get like this? Am I even thinking or am I just tricking myself into not feeling brain dead? I envy those who can live day by day -like it's just another day. Why can't people like me -with heads like mines ever catch a break? Anyways thank you for being here, while I aimlessly rant. I'm trying to pinpoint my feelings before tomorrow, because I want to know where I'm going -and not just go with an unpredictable current.

You always matter to someone, even if you don't feel like it. Everything works out in your favor one way or another. You have to believe that you're fantastic, because if you don't you'll quickly lose sight in everything right and slip into everything untrue. It's Saturday, how are you choosing to feel? Every feeling that you have can either pick you up, or let you down. I wanted to start a new segment, I wanted a poetic but stoic vibe, and I think Shakespeare hit the nail... or could I have done someone more... or something different? I don't know I'm done embracing words that don't hold meaning. I know what gets to you, because it always gets to me first. Let's talk minds and how their minds always seem to operate around you and your essence. You're thinking too small. You're thinking too clean. Why not think on the terms of outrageous and dirty Where you see confusion, I see games, and we all love games don't we? The tr

It's Thursday which means we can be PINK one more time before the week ends. Let's be poetic or at the very most taunting to other people's realities. Let's be a drama queen to get where other queens are going. Let's be ahead of the game, because a little birdie once to me, the game never truly matters if you can just flip the board. You're more than what you say about yourself. You're holding onto so much power, and you're allowing it to consume you, that's weird if not insane. Insanity is when you're willing to hide yourself in a world filled with victims ready to meet you -and explore you. When the world ends you'll for sure run out of options, so why not live until the very end? I feel like I'm catching a PINK VIBE, but I don't know about you... because you're still asleep. Don't you hear me tapping on the window? Don't you hear the world waking up, while you're still sinking deeper and deeper within

Being reborn means cutting yourself loose from all those loose screws. Let's learn to be PINK instead of bland. This is the first day of Spring, which means you've been given an energetic boost to blossom. Be unlike those who are willing to stay the same. You have to stand out in a society wanting to stay mediocre. Renewal means restoration, and I'm talking in all generations. Be magnificent. Choose to be lovely even if yesterday was extremely ugly. Games are meant to be played in order to know each player. You've met yourself several times before, all in this new month I'm betting on the real you -to come to the center stage. Let's digitally speak truth, and spit out the BULLSH!T!!! You're here for a reason, and I can't tell you that reason -because we all have different reasons. Knowing how far your greatness could take you, would you then put yourself first, because putting yourself last means never getting to bask in the fruits of your

Yeah I know WEDNESDAY'S are usually PINK WEDNESDAY'S, but seriously when I see examples I have to put them into words done in a poetic manner... for you to get the underlying message. Hell has no fury, and demons have no home. If hell is in fact here on earth, wouldn't that justify your wicked thoughts. Have you ever considered the thoughts that circulate within your cranium -other thoughts unlike your thoughts? You're driving yourself crazy, while aimlessly trying to wrap your head around meaningless matters, that can't be fixed and or saved. Why save what wouldn't save you? Why think on situations that are meant to stay dead. You're wakening death, while expecting a higher presence to save you; do you know of any popes that could make sense of that? Learn to quiet the mind, when the devil has plans for you. Just like conceptions, perceptions are also a thing. How you perceive the unknown, very well becomes, very well known. I'm watchin