Raise your glass to visibility!!!!

Ughhhh it's been awhile, hasn't it? I think that should be my new tagline, if not my entire header, because I'm always leaving before I can fully imprint with the very thing that makes my soul fly. I'm always turning off the lights, while losing my mind while also downplaying how much I woodenly deadpan my whole existence. I'm always scanning for the crowd and absolutely nothing -at the same time. I'm always setting deadlines, before the day begins. It's like I'm giving myself a head start to cancel myself out before my potential calls in all that's good and owed to me. so if you're like me: one of a kind but choosing to be matter without exactly mattering, then this blog is for you, and you alone. so grab some snacks and let's get into it, because I'm shinning a spotlight on visibility, and how it's frees what's been trying to desperately cling onto your light, while also wishing to snuff it out -to snuff you out!

where's the meaning in all of this? all of this hiding out while wishing to be present. where's the tradition in displaying your creativity, even if it's in the form of your personality. where's the meaning in slowing down, when all you've ever done is run. where's the meaning in wanting to build community when you've been standing on the outside of it while boasting about having no friends, because if you're steadily wondering, just know that, so am I... I mean, so was I. but I'm also not saying that I've been healed, in the sense that I've moved house entirely with enough distance to never be lured back there again, but I can say I get to raise my glass everytime I choose the unknown over what's been doing me no good while staying in the form of familiarity. so what does moving forward actually look like if it doesn't come with a daring statement, to find meaning all the while isolation detaches nicely and cleanly, even if it comes off looking filthy. I'M A LITTLE CURIOUS.... WHAT WAS MY TAGLINE BEFORE???? OH THAT'S RIGHT XOXOITGIRL OVERLOADXOXO